i knitted you a hat all blue and gold to keep your ears warm from the binghamton cold. it was my first one and it was too small. it didn't fit you at all but you wore it just the same. i remember the first time we danced. i remember tunneling through the snow like ants. what i don't recall is why i said, "i simply can't sleep in this tiny bed with you anymore." i should tell you that you were my first love. so it's christmas time, it's been three years. and someone else is knitting things for your ears. i have come to learn i'll only see you interrupting my dreams at night and that's alright. we were seventeen together again. we were seventeen again.