Just Wondering

[Nikki]

Just Wondering

I wonder if this could ever even begin to really start
I wonder if my insecurity will begin to tear me apart
I wonder if you know about the jolt of electricity that courses througn my veins
I wonder if you know that when I think of you, I get higher than I could on cocaine
I wonder if you will ever really see me for what I am
I wonder if you could ever hold me + begin to understand

All I know is that, in this world, you are my sunrise
All I know is that, in this world, is you are my moonlight
Everything of beauty that I have ever seen, is insignificant when I dream of you
Everything that means anything to me is unimportant everytime that I feel you
You are the reason that I feel like I could ever face another day
You are the reason that I choke on all these words that I'll never say

I wonder if you realise the things I'm trynna will you to believe
I wonder if you know that without you, all I ever do is leave
I wonder if you will ever look at me in the way that makes me feel so alive
I wonder if you will ever hold me in the way that makes me feel so good, I cry
I wonder if all you see me as is the one who will pick you up each + everytime
I wonder if all you see me as is the one who will be there when everything is not so fine

Above all, I wonder if you know that I love you more than my heart could ever know
I could never tell you all this, so I hope you understand, it would kill me to let you go
I hope you know who you are cause if you don't, I can't say to you
It's not that I don't want you to know, but how could I tell you?

[IndustrialWaste]

wow nikki. just wow. that was supremely amazing, and it's so close to my life right now! AWESOMENESS!!

[Nikki]

Thanks, dood, your opinion means a lot

[INKY]

Nikki, surly you are dam good at writing things that just sweep people off their feet as it has mine. It was some really beautiful writing and sure made whoever it was intended out there very proud to be your friend as am I. I guess I can copy and paste that and say the same to you. But that would be stealing your wondeful words.

[Nikki]

Thank you so much you have no idea

[INKY]

Is that bad or good that I have no idea?

[Nikki]

I jsut meant you have no idea how much that meant to me, it's good, you really touched me with your reply, this is one of the most, I dunno, it's not one of my best, although it might be, I dunno, I can't be objective, I'm incapable, but this one is very close to my heart

[INKY]

thanks. Dam lucky bastard. Hope her appericates what you think of him.her.

[Nikki]

Hahahah, don't call my friends names! Yes, they do appreciate me, though

[INKY]

Sorry, jealously is a bitch.