[Nikki]

Just In Case I Die

This poem isn't here to warn you
It?s just in case I die
Without letting you know that I love you
Or even saying goodbye

To Erica, you?re my sweetheart
You?ve held me up to fly
I know this must be hard for you
But please, don't start to cry

To Inks, you know I love you
You know that ain't a lie
Though time has always hurt us
It hasn?t passed us by

And Laney, you?re my angel
Now I?m up in the sky
There?s only one star waving to you
That?s me, I?m saying hi

You all, you?ve never left me
You didn?t even try
This poem is for you angels
It?s just in case I die


Death Wish

I shut the door to our memories,
Your dark light seeps underneath.
I?ve glimpsed the rays of truth,
While it's lies that you speak.
Do you care about feelings,
The pain crashing in my head?
The tears that are falling?
I?m wishing I were dead.

I swore I wouldn't do this again.
I swore I wouldn?t dream
I swore I wouldn?t give my soul.
Now I?m on my knees.

This reality is too dramatic.
Life -the one thing I can't face.
So I?ll crawl into the corner,
The only place I feel safe.
I wish I couldn't feel,
I wish my body would be numb.
I wish my mind would stop
From these memories I will run.

I turn,I fall, down on the ground,
Mmories fade into glinting knife
I write pain in my wounds,
Tun to blood for meaning in life
Can?t you hear, my soul cry?
Can?t you see, my heart breaking?
Can?t you feel the pain within?
I?m on the floor my body?s aching.